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This is really happening…

Wow, who is she?

“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

— Rob Siltanen.

This is most definitely something I NEVER thought I would do in my life. Although, lately I’ve been doing a lot of things I never thought I was capable of.

Truth is, I’ve been a miserable human being practically my whole life. I’ve let my depression and anxiety dictate my life; leading me to miss out on countless opportunities, multiple relationships and friendships…and one day recently, I just got sick of it. I started being nice to myself for once and stepping out of my comfort zone. Those two things have made a wild difference in what direction my life has been headed and the way that I feel about myself.

I made this blog as a creative outlet because lately, I’ve been…creative. I’ve been exploring different way to express myself through photography, poetry, prose, and painting. I’ve always had a little bit of a creative bug but, like many other things, my depression and anxiety kept me from following through with it.

I plan on posting here as often as I can, hopefully daily or just whenever I need a little creative time. If this reaches just one person, I’ll feel it was all worth it. I’m not here for money, an audience, fame, etc. I’m here to share with those willing to listen. If I can connect with people because of that, well that’s just awesome.

To who ever is out there reading this, I hope you are well. If you are not, start being kind to yourself. Take care of yourself, because there is only one you. Life is too short to be miserable all the time, and I hope this blog can help a few people through some rough patches.

Peace and love my misfits,

-Lindsey

CHANGE

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Change has always scared the shit out of me. My therapist told me I have an adjustment disorder, so I guess that makes sense. Big changes though, those are what nightmares are made of.

I start a new job in February, one that I guess you could say is my dream job; I wanted it so bad when I was in x-ray school that I was almost certain I’d take the path of Interventional Radiology (IR) after graduating. I had an interview for IR right out of school and didn’t get the job. I felt defeated and discouraged.

I have been trying to make changes to my career for over a year now, I felt like I was drowning in my current position and not making much of a difference. I needed more; a challenge, something more stimulating. Something I could leave work every day and be proud of what I did. Something that will help me grow, evolve, and progress. I applied for different positions internally, didn’t get any of them. Then I stumbled upon this IR posting and waited months from the initial application process, to the interview, to the actual job offer. But I got it. I got a job in Vascular Interventional Radiology.

Guess everything does happen for a reason, right?

I feel so many things when it comes to starting this job, a wide range of emotions that go from scared to excited to anxious. Scared to know that patient’s lives are literally going to be in my hands. Excited to learn new things every day, meet new people, make a new routine, and create a career I’m proud of. Anxious because I have to wait until FEBRUARY to start!

At the end of the day though, I know that I’m taking a big step in the right direction. I know that the decision to accept this job will bring many other things I’ve been wishing for for a long while. I know that I’m ready to not let fear dictate my life or keep me from growing, evolving, and progressing. Because there’s nothing scarier being stuck in a place you feel you don’t belong, or doing something every day that brings you absolutely no joy.

Do you have something you want to change? Does it scare the shit out of you?

I know the feeling.

But it’s time.

Life is good

It’s funny how everything in life can magically align to your favor, if you put effort and energy into manifesting your dreams. Manifestation is real, folks. Months ago I realized I needed to make some major changes in my life, and set out on my journey to make them. Now here I am, happier than I have been in years, landed my dream job, surrounded in great people, new and old.

We all deserve this kind of happiness, wholeness. Good things come to those who work for it. All things are possible.

Peace and love my misfits ✌🏼🖤